We just wrapped up our second-to-last week as Summer Sea Scholars, culminating in the final science symposium. We\u2019ve been preparing for both our final presentations and our posters for most of the summer, but I felt like I had been preparing for most of my life. Let me explain.
\nMost of my summer I\u2019ve debating the question, \u201cTo go to grad school now or to not go to grad school now?\u201d But more importantly, \u201cWhat do I want to do with my life? What do I see myself becoming?\u201d I thought that I should figure that out before applying to (most likely very expensive) graduate school. After all, isn\u2019t grad school supposed to prepare you for what you want to be? How could I enroll in something that prepares me for an unknown end goal?
\nI\u2019ve talked to quite a few people over the years about the pros and cons of taking a “gap year” between undergrad and graduate. A few moments of advice stand out:<\/p>\n
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I was sitting in one of my professors\u2019 office my freshmen year, trying to debate if I should continue on with Political Science, or have more of a Biology focus, when he asked me a simple question, \u201cWhat makes you the happiest?\u201d I didn\u2019t hesitate, \u201cI really love when there is something that I love, or think is fascinating, and then I tell someone else about it, and then they think that it\u2019s really fascinating too.\u201d \u201cYou know there\u2019s a name for that?\u201d \u201cReally, what?\u201d He paused, and then said, \u201cTeaching\u201d. In that one simple statement, my world was shaken. I knew what I wanted to do without ever realizing it. But teaching could come in a variety of careers, even if that isn\u2019t the specific focus. And what would I teach? And that still didn’t tell me if I should go to graduate school, in what field, or when…
\nWhen I told my advisor that I wanted to be a professor, he responded, \u201cWell, you certainly have the brains for it.\u201d This amazed me; he had only witnessed a semester\u2019s worth of my research capabilities, and he whole-heartedly believed that I could have a career in research and teaching others to do the same. Later he cautioned me when looking at my 4-year undergrad plan, worried that I may experience \u201cburn-out\u201d if I went straight to grad school. He had seen quite a few people that simply got bogged down with the research after being in school for so long, and they never finished. He doesn\u2019t want the same for me.<\/p>\n
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And so that brought me to this summer, where I tried to picture myself in the future. While there were quite a few positions where I think I would be happy, I truly believe that I\u2019ll be the happiest as a professor. But it was still hard to truly know that I would love that position without actually being immersed in the workload. Spending my time looking through GRE vocab cards and taking practice exams, I want to make sure that my time is well spent, especially since I\u2019m making the decision to steer my life in this direction \u2013 not just studying for the GRE, but applying to graduate school and scholarships, attending 5-7+ more years of school … a huge time commitment that could be spent doing so many different things. I needed a sign to make sure that this was really what I wanted to spend my life doing.
\nFast forward to this past week, where I spent most of my time preparing my speech \u2013 writing, practicing, cutting, and repeating, until I got to one final polished piece that I was immensely proud of \u2013 it was clear, concise, and discussed all of the most important information of my summer research.\u00a0Nonetheless, I was really still nervous before I presented. When Haley was introducing me, I checked my pulse \u2013 incredibly fast and completely erratic. A few more advice-givers came to mind, \u201cThink of it as a conversation,\u201d one of my best friends told me once, \u201cYou are just telling the audience a story, so act like you\u2019re just telling me something that you find fascinating;\u201d This, along with Collin\u2019s advice to play a cool catchy song before presenting, helped me to stroll to the front of the room with \u201cSunglasses at Night\u201d strumming in my head. Timing out my presentation also helped, as I was able to check my watch, to watch my pace. I also reminded myself to breathe \u2013 this helped with pauses.
\nSo that\u2019s what I did, I talked like I was having a conversation with a group of people. It honestly surprised me how engaged they were \u2013 the questions that were asked were spot-on bits of information that I pulled from my presentation for time-sake \u2013 it was like I planted them in the audience! But it demonstrated just how much they were listening, like in a (good) conversation. The poster fair was no different, with more people introducing themselves and asking me more of what I wished I had been able to cover in my presentation, and I was immensely grateful to be able to continue the discussion.
\nI was surprised on multiple fronts \u2013 I was surprised at how interested everyone in the audience was in my topic. I was surprised at how I was able to convey the information that I wanted, and engage them in a way that they could follow (I typically speak at a million miles an hour, jump around, and lose everyone). I was surprised by how much I thoroughly enjoyed answering questions that I knew about from my research, and I was the most surprised\/fulfilled when someone asked me questions about my research that I hadn\u2019t considered. Their fresh perspectives helped me to be more curious about new and different aspects of my projects. Wow.<\/p>\n
But, above all, I got my sign. This short afternoon experience offered me the insight that I was hoping for. If the life of a professor is spent researching, [also in meetings and more meetings], engaging others, and constantly being inspired to new research, then I am incredibly excited for my life to come (and for moments like these that I’m sure I will continue to experience throughout my life – the great thing about learning is that it happens everywhere).
\nCurrent plan? Apply to grad school, with my experience in hand, my end-goal in sight, and the passion in my heart, leading me and fulfilling me as I engage with my colleagues and fellow students everyday. Thanks so much to all of those in Oregon Sea Grant who selected me to take part in this amazing opportunity, allowing me insight into my career, and setting me on this path towards my exciting future.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
We just wrapped up our second-to-last week as Summer Sea Scholars, culminating in the final science symposium. We\u2019ve been preparing for both our final presentations and our posters for most of the summer, but I felt like I had been … Continue reading