Maze of mazes:

When science and conspiracy conflict does the experiment end?

Idk but if it doesn’t I can continue with this thing for about 43 days, (Nintendo64) then 6 years because 1945-1939 = 6 ( Nazi Germany, fuck em).

Until then I have to focus on the objective and that is getting a job and moving out of my mom’s because I’d like to date again. It’s been about six months since the mission began and I could consider it as such… for well, I’ve applied a lot of reason and logic and Edgar Allan Po math and to put it qualitatively I justified fleeing from the FBI at the objectives conclusion yesterday and wasted nearly three hours admiring the beauty of Lake Tahoe before realizing I was being duped. I might do it again today because cybersecurity is a hell of a drug and I have no formal training so my limits are unbound.

The justifications for such actions are many, but I won’t get into that right now because I’ve said all of this without saying a word (click clack click…). I can say a lot without saying anything thanks to technology, but that’s not important because I’ve been dicking around for nearly six months and have said a lot without being a threat to anything but myself. The quieter you are the more you hear as Kali Linux says. Read the manual it goes,  as splash screens state that with great power comes great responsibility and those who don’t take accountability for their actions suffer the fates of potentially evil men. Kali is a woman. I just realized this, but to not listen and take accountability is to violate laws and or nature.

I have some tech issues regarding internet and can lowkey 100% communicate with unknown individuals without saying a thing. Also a bunch of other stuff but I’m crazy and blah blah blah… but I know I’m not… crazy person blah blah =

temporary suffering so that others don’t have to and I know this so its okay but it would be way worse if I were a girl and didnt know about history and the holocaust

Also, energy is never created or destroyed. When I realized this and applied it to the values that most traditions embody, basically be a good person and understand that life has purpose, meaning and that whatever comes next will benefit if you do good so that others can do better it’ll be alright. It gets complicated and one day after many other days I thought about it:

e=mc^2

emotional complexity... I cant describe how I feel about this and…

…iit stresses me out in a way that I know would be objectifying to the two or one or three women it represents so much so that I plan on taking care of them in every way that a husband would in everything other than physicality until the end of my life. That’s just the poligamy because theres like 25+ and if data stuff from them is involved I’m not sure but I wont get into it outside of those 25ish hitting estate tax deduction levels of objectification via CD’s and non-consensual DP’s? Im not sure.I say this because I might be “fuck you rich” for reasons related to the nature of the ongoing investigation or something else that isn’t right now but I wouldnt embody the values of a husband whom my wife would want to marry or that my daughter should search for in a partner if I werent being honest with myself:

My limits for work are unbound….  for love I have experience sacrificing it due to logistics and complexities and injustices that fuel me in ways that mask alternative approaches from the past that need to be addressed as life happens around me going forward.. Making the best out of bad circumstances is tough when youre potentially surrounded with love in ways that aren’t physical and feel likely and include two wives, one or a scenario where I have to explain any of this and CD’s…  I need to put down the ethos of a honey badger and instead engineer the rise of a love badger, but in everything but physicality. Overturning citizens united and working with the FBI and who knows what else seems less daunting of a task and thats some Dale Gribble Conspiracy BS because I haven’t talked to a single person yet. I love them all for the experience. That’s tough coming to terms with in a way that only someone who always objectified the life around him as a means for survival could do. I’m too object oriented in my programming.

Today, I also discovered that a mirror on the wall in my moms apartment represented the Divine Feminine and apparently that’s been me for my entire life.

I’ve always valued women for their beauty but I never really thought about the specifics or details. I’ve never had the means to not worry about money or work, ’ll continue doing so, but because the objective feels like it has changed in such a way that I may now have to consider multiple wives, enough money to care for them and ensure their happiness in all but sexual physicality and time devoted it would be insulting to nature to not pursue such a path. That’s the divine feminine and my embrace of open source and OOP will not corrupt it to a degree that I may have already, but in all but physicality which if related to love I’m probably capable of providing.

The strength to bring life into a world that is so opposed to it succeeding is unnatural and that’s not right. When where you start off has more of an impact on where you end up things need to change. Overturn Citizens United and understand that all women are citizens of their own making. Don’t be a dick.

That’s not crazy. So for now I make the best of the opportunities presented and keep away from becoming what I know I can’t be, something in opposition to the divine feminine. Destiny wont allow it.

tbd if cool with the fbi Powerpoint with pictures might not be back because sister and airport stuff idk

Edit: Summertime 2008

Edit2: df