Ancient wisdom from a land my parents escaped
Assimilation with my new culture where an outsider was made
Me, I am the outsider
I thought I was leaving separatism behind
What I was met with can surely make anyone want to respond in kind
Put your head down and work hard to achieve
But the caveat is you will be living your life for me
The small print no one bothers to read on a contract
It seems that I was born into a persona, a job, a way of being, a way living by default
But why can’t I live my life as me and not be a minor character in your last act?
I have been forced to walk the tightrope bridging my bifurcated life
Never knowing the who, where, why, how, or when of slipping into strife
I bear the scars of tumbling headlong onto the jagged ground
Brushing myself off, I swallow deep inside the pain to tell people I was just fooling around…
Today, I have decided to become the playwright of my life
Today, I have decided that I am the protagonist
Today, I will share my experiences hoping others won’t have to fall as I fell
Today, I know I can use my knowledge of pain to be gentle
Today, I seek a true reflection of me as the woman-child in the mirror
Tomorrow…
Tomorrow is filled with what dream may come…