In last summer, I originally planned to choose to back to China and choose 2 or 3 online courses to take during that summer; however, my parents told me that they were not willing to let me go back to China because they did not want to pay the extremely expensive fly ticket and they want me to stay in the US and graduate early. As soon as I heard the message, I felt my heart is breaking, and I lost every interests on doing everything. So, I had to stay in the dormitory at OSU, and I canceled all the 3 courses I originally planned to take. A few days later, when my parents asked about me how was I doing, I told them that I was not in any mood to devote myself to any courses. They tried to convince me to keep taking summer classes, and I told them that I haven’t been back to my country for 3 years, and I took courses during every summer break. I desperately needed a break. Later they seemed to understand that it was a waste of time to continue to push me, so they allowed me to take a summer break.
The reason why compensation motivated my behavior was that I was too tired to take classes, and I really needed a break to step out from the depression. I think the love and belonging of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs made me feel depression.
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