The team had our first live meeting last week. The two other members have worked together previously, so there is an existing workflow that I am having to adapt to, but this hasn’t been a challenge so far. I’m actually relieved to have such a driven group with a set way of doing things. In the past I have found myself taking lead on most of our group projects, so to have someone else assume that role feels like a burden has been lifted. I like to use Teams, they like to use Discord. Not a problem. They want to add testing protocols and continuous integration, even though it is not part of the requirements. Ok, sure.

I have a habit of taking the lead, because I want everything to go right. Maybe I have trust issues with people I’m counting on to actually follow through on their obligations. I don’t think I’m controlling — I’m actually laid back about taking lead — and I tend to do more work than my other team members just so it doesn’t seem like I’m just telling people what to do and not doing any of the work. This time feels different, though. Maybe there is a maturity level in my peers that I haven’t seen before, or maybe it’s them showing confidence. Either way, I feel confident in them and it’s making me less stressed.

At this point, I’m ready to sit back and let someone else worry about the oversight. I have a demanding job, and I’m working on two degrees. This is the last class in the program and I am certain to graduate without issue. I’m going to let myself relax on this one. I’m sure the work will still get done.