It took me a little while to understand how to move forward with this self-evaluation as it is not something I have given a lot of thought to. I hope that someday my schedule will slow down enough that I can take some time for self-reflection more often.
What am I good at?
Right now, I am good at accomplishing tasks. This is helpful while trying to work full time, studying for an MBA, and trying to make some time for family. I have come to terms with this being the status quo over the next several years while I finish school. Even though I feel like I am in a rut sometimes and the days can be long and brutal, I remember how lucky I am to be in my current position. I know that this will not last forever, and even though it is painful, I hope my daughter sees how hard work pays off if you try and push yourself.
What do I value?
I value my time. Time is a commodity that is immeasurable in both length and value, and we are blissfully unaware when our clock will tick for the final time. While I spend a lot of time at work and school now, I am hopeful the ends justify the means. I want to experience as much of the world as I can with my family before my time is gone. If that means being there for major family events but missing smaller ones so I can earn enough money to have world adventures, I will say I am spending my time wisely. I believe the trick will be finding a proper balance.
How did I get here?
I got to my current work position by applying and having an excellent interview with multiple employees within the company, specifically my current manager. I chose to stay on several occasions because of him as well. I decided to attend Oregon State to get an MBA because I started, but did not finish, my bachelor’s degree at OSU so I always felt like I had unfinished business with the university. I chose my current program because it was well-rounded, and I felt it could help me move up in my career better than the other ones offered through the online program.
Where am I going?
I am going to finish my degree. That is the only priority I have right now. A lot of sacrifices by my family, myself, and my colleagues have gone into this pursuit, and I will not give up until I have my degree in hand. After that, it will be time to re-evaluate and see what will make me happy while also supporting my family and my interest in global travel. But I take it one week at a time during each class, so I do not get too far ahead of myself. If I look too far ahead, I may not keep my focus where it needs to be.
I know these answers probably come across as simplistic, but they are true to who I am and where I want to be going. Like I said, we never know when our time will be up, and I want to make the most of it while staying true to myself and being an honest person to those around me.
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